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24th May 2013

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a story

this crowded place
held no meaning to me
till I saw you
with those to sure eyes

but I could not see 
what the memory would mean
In ways
I was blind to that day

yet the words we spoke
I meet each one
picked them with care
as your eyes
seemed so right

but we both knew
this was a one time chance
both seeing the risk

our end was clear
but right now
its our time

Tagged: candylandandcookiespoetry

23rd May 2013

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dear followers,

I got lost
in sad thoughts
and self hate
the need to run 

but I pushed the words
that  tired to be free
In corners and closets
till it become to much for me

to live a lie
with a mask unseen
for those nearest to me
saw but a smile
about to fade

so I shut down you see
finding my comfort
in the silence of these
finally I feel
I am free

to speak
more clearly
as a new storm
greys the clouds

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21st May 2013

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I wish

that I could
see past the fear
the mistakes I made
the person I used to be

I just wish
saying it
was as easy to believe
and turn into a reality  

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20th May 2013

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if you want my attention

use your words
tell me who you are
where you been
and the thoughts you have

I hope you understand
money is great
but truth is worth more
give me that

I want to get to know you
past it all
the things you hide
the secrets you keep

but in the end
I want the best and worst 
Of you 
just promise me 
you actions will reflect
this to be true  

Tagged: candylandandcookiespoetry

18th May 2013

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dear self,

you did it again
talked to much again
said the wrong thing
gave your trust
to a stranger at dusk

I was on cloud nine
the deed been done
the papers no longer mine
you took a part of me

but yet I give more of me
with the lose of self
the gain unclear
as my dreams
and reality blur

leaving me in wonder
as I awake
wondering why
I made this mistake

Tagged: candylandandcookiespoetry

16th May 2013

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last night

I stayed up to late
in hopes to high
to speak to you

but as you always do
you got quiet
leaving me
with my thoughts

so I wrote you this note
in hopes you hear
not that I would send it

so dear page
this is all I have to say
I just hope someday
I can say it at the right time

Tagged: candylandandcookiespoetry

15th May 2013

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why

I keep talking
even though
we both know
the words are gone

we had are chance
at this thing
that could of been
till you shut the window
letting silence in

we are stuck in a dance
a game of chess
that I can never win
you have your poker face
I have nothing to hide

so why do I try
to make this something
it will never be
when we both know
you will move on

leaving me
just like the rest
with silence

Tagged: candylandandcookiespoetry

12th May 2013

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I am here

I know you
but you don’t know me
you are stronger
and better then this

let them talk
the words empty
with no power
the hate they give

but I know you
I happen to disagree
if you would just please
hear me out
I am reaching out

Tagged: candylandandcookiespoetry

12th May 2013

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dear food,

One more bit
if only I could
not use you so 
to deal with my day

but I hate you
try to forget
a meal or two
as I fear the number
on the scale

how can you be so good
yet so bad for me
to big to small
why must it be
one or the other for me

when will this end
and food be food
no longer my enemy
but a thing to let me live

Tagged: candylandandcookiespoetry

10th May 2013

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when I am gone

I had a dream
you were there
thought you forgot
about the time  we had

people wept and spoke
with such truth
some never knowing me
Stanger’s came  
as if they knew me
the ones who bullied me

but my true friends
were the silent ones
there words unspoken
the pain in their eyes

they burned my body
just like the rest
my life summed up
in few words
that said so much

then my dream found its end
I was alone with my thoughts
of the lose of me
the tear filled eyes
could no longer see
the pain at hand

Tagged: candylandandcookiespoetry